One day, to cut the story short, she convinced me that she is willing to listen and understand me whatever 'big secret' that I'm going to tell her. In fact, she told me she already have some idea of what I'm going to tell her. And so I did after she has persuaded me for almost an hour.
Right after that night, things have changed. I am a person who has strong faith in Buddhism and have always wanted to pursue a short term Buddhism studies in Nepal. My best friend secretly contacted my sister (whom I already came out to) and told my sis her intention to sponsor me to study Buddhism in Nepal in hope that the event will change me (as in turning me straight). I was disappointed that she sees the academy as a 'rehabilitation centre' to 'cure me'.
Lately my best friend has been so involved in Buddhism, she even take refuge as a Buddhist, attended a retreat and meditation and become a nun for 9 days. She told me that she did it because of me. I advised her not to meditate when her mind is filled with hatred and attachment. Yes, hatred because she told me she is disgusted that I'm a Buddhist who is a lesbian.
Right now, I have nothing to say but to leave her to find the answer for herself. I believe one day my dear friend will understand what makes me happy to be who I am and not being someone that I am not.
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posted by AndroJ at 12:02 PM
